My head hurts. I feel sick - dizzy - can't think straight going to faint.No. Can't Faint - have to finish physics test whats the resistor equation anyway im not low. blood sugars fine, has to be, not interval yet.
Mind over matter i have to finish the test
sugars are plummeting
mind over matter mind over matter mind over matter over mind over matter over mind matter over mind matter over my head over the rainbow over- over- matter. Nothing really matters-
No. Mind over matter! I will finish this test!
saved by the bell
need to ask physics teacher for past papers then eat something.
food. food is important why i don't know it is
"Johanna, have you had your medication?" who said that i dont know it doesnt matter medication is insulin isnt it and "ive had my insulin yes" so i must be fine
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at least i dont need to ask where i am but why am i on a bench outside poundstretcher and why am i not in school why do i feel so ill why is that woman edging away from me maybe she thinks im drunk id better sit up whys
the world spinning and why do i feel sick whats wrong with me
ill phone mum
"hello i feel terrible i want to come home but i havent delivered dads parcel and he asked me to do it do you think rebeccall do it"
"Maybe. Go back to the school and ask them to send you home. You can ask Rebecca while you're there. Have you had something to eat?"
"ive had my lunch" i must have and it must be lunchtime because im away from school and why else would i be away from school?
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im at school now somehow i didnt get run over on the way up and rebeccas sent me a text
J don't go in school. Canteen on fire. R
but canteens not on fire schools fine no pillar of black smoke no smell of burning no fire engines
would it help if i pinch myself i don't know i try it anyway and read the message again
Canteen on fire.
but canteen isnt on fire.
whats going on?
thats the fire alarm. and theres people in the playground. pupils teachers - maybe canteen is on fire theres a teacher i recognise. maybe he can help me "i think i might be low" he helps me inside "but. isnt the
canteen on fire?"
No.
people ply me with sugar and school nurse appears she was about to go into town and look for me but here i am. eating maltesers.
i finish the maltesers and start to feel better. We swap diabetic stories. When Mum arrives, panic-stricken because I told her I had eaten my lunch at eleven o'clock so she realised I must be low, my blood sugar levels are almost normal.
I'll feel better soon.