Everybody has their own different chapters in life which may or may not be a difficult time for them and I would say that in my life I have had some very difficult experiences and one of these was being diagnosed with type 1 Diabetes. This time felt like a lonely time for me even though I had people around me helping and trying to get me through it, it made me feel lonely and angry at the same time. It was like why me? why couldn't some else in my family have it instead of me?

I have made life difficult for myself really, not taking notice of the people who care about me the most as well as the doctors and nurses at the Diabetic clinic. When I go its like I agree with what they say but I find it hard to get over the psychological emotions and feelings I have to actually change my life and make it better for myself when I get home. I am on a pen now and metformin tablets as I haven't controlled it, I know I find it hard to change my ways and because of this I think about my future quite a lot, for example, what problems might I get? but I bet most people say "it won't happen to me".

I read the magazines and I see people who are happy and how they say don't let it change you but unless you are someone else with a different perspective on what life is like in the same situation you don't and wouldn't really understand.

My friends have been with me from the start with my Diabetes but I feel they don't really know what they can do to help me. I try to act normal on the outside acting like lives a big joke, like I don't care but inside me is a different part which I feel I have to hide because I don't want to bother other people with what I feel.

I regret most things in my life and a big part is the diabetes I feel like it controls my and I can't control the diabetes. Its frightening not knowing what life will bring next and what changes it will bring but I will have to try to focus on the future and not what has happened in the past it is there for life and there isn't anything I can do bout it.