I was taken into hospital on the 16th April 2007. I was so scared! I'd never been admitted to hospital before! In fact, the only time I've ever actually been in a hospital, was to visit my Nan when she used to be there! Isn't it only old people who go into hospital?! Everything happened so fast! But, hey, I'm already getting used to it and I suppose it's something I'm going to have to cope with for the rest of my life. Yes, I still have my emotional moments and I'm not totally dedicated to doing my insulin, but my mums comforting really helps and I know I have to do it and I always end-up doing it anyway.

Being Diabetic does actually have some good advantages. It actually makes me feel special and sometimes even just a little pleased! There are also some disadvantages about it and I'm not too keen on all the questions people ask but, I'm not rude enough to just ignore the people, so I gladly answer them. It's annoying though, that some people can actually get jealous because I get to eat at times when people are with me and they're not allowed to!

One of the worst things is at school with my friends when they feel they're helping by hiding food, of which they suppose I am unable to have! This just makes me feel entirely alienated! I know they're only trying to help but I'd prefer it if they wouldn't!

I also get frustrated when I have a hypo (low blood sugar level) because, sometimes the top half of my body feels extremely top heavy and I feel as if it is just going to flop down. It's bothersome that, when I have a hypo, I have no energy at all and sometimes I get a stomach ache or headache. Also, everything around me seems to spin round and round and my head feels as if it just wants to hang right down low. It feels such a catastrophe when I'm low because I'm just sooooooooooo hungry, I'd probably eat my family out of house and home! When I'm low at school, I have to go outside the classroom to check my blood sugar level and usually there are lots of people out there who crowd around me and watch. This makes me feel isolated and it makes me fidgety!

There's always the other end of the scale, when my blood goes high. That's when I start to worry because I realize that this is more dangerous than going low but I always say to myself 'It's after a long period of time that that happens so there's no need to worry'. Also I think, that I check my blood sugar level enough, for it not to go too high!

When I am high I lose concentration and I feel ill. If something happens, while I'm high, that's not very good; I find it quite difficult to cope and, evidently, get very stressed, even if it was only slightly sad or horrid! I would also get extremely annoyed with everything and everyone around me quite easily, and then I'd go off crying or something! That's what usually happens! Also, when I'm high, I become immensely tired and I worry about everything. If someone tries to explain something to me they just don't proceed, not even the slightest bit because I can't seem to understand a thing, then I get upset. I cry quite a lot when I'm high. I'm not sure why, it's probably because I get an abundance of feelings building up inside me, ready to implode!

Sometimes my diabetes gets me down and makes me upset, because I can't do certain things such as cartwheels and dancing. It doesn't stop me from doing these things completely, only when I'm low or I haven't been well which I can actually understand! I think people know me, to get upset, when I can't do something because my diabetes stops me and I think that gives them the impression that I'm petty and melodramatic, but it's just because they just don't comprehend my feelings inside!

I must agree with my mum when she says that I like to rely on people because, I know, that when my diabetes is making me sad I rely on her to make me happy, but I think we all need someone to fall back on, whatever the circumstances! I also get angry with her sometimes, when my diabetes is really getting on top of me and it's not because I'm angry with her, specifically, it's because I usually need something or someone to take the anger out on!

Now and again, I'll probably forget to do my insulin and some other problems will occur. That's when I really need someone to talk to about it and I get worried.

When I was first diagnosed diabetic, I didn't think I'd ever be able to cope, but I got to grips with it pretty soon. I still have my ups and downs but other than that I think I'm coping very well! However there are times when I can get really scared and I always think something bad is going to happen but it never does and, usually, all I have to do is, carry on as normal!

I am awfully thankful that I have a diabetic nurse to lead me in the right direction and she really helps me to understand the wrongs and rights, the dos and don'ts and all of the ups and downs. Another good thing is that my consultant at the hospital is really kind and when I was taken in, he happened to be there at the time. When I had my celiac test I was crying and he comforted me. I really don't think I would have been able to cope without all of these nice people!